Quite Disappointed…
Written by Anurag Bhateja on July 24, 2009 – 12:57 am -This may be just a feeling or may the same mood swings which keep on coming and going from last many months. But at this moment I am feeling too much disappointed for many reasons. I do not know how to react so may not react on this issue. Though I want to react in very brutal way, so bad that I can ruin many relationships which may be almost ruined or I am myself trying to get on line.
About a month ago, I confessed in front of the girl whom I love that I love her which turned to be a disaster and she is avoiding me from that very day. For single reason I love her, which is dimming, she just stopeed talking to me because this is “making her uncomfortable”. What if I never told her and keep on talking to her and feeling more and more for her? She said once “What if boyfriend of the girl you love, come to beat you?”. I am not doing anything wrong. I am not harming you and never want to do that. That was a feeling which will remain in my heart forever. Getting you back as friend is impossible but remember impossible is “I M Possible”. I know this will take time and I know I should not wait. I think she got angry on my status more where I wrote I won’t step back. May be she took me wrong and thought I want to say I will get her in my life but I just wanted to say that I want to tell you. I want to tell you what I feel for you. May be I ruined everything myself.
My dearest friend is going to Canada for three long years. From last four years, I have spent maximum time with her. We watched movies, enjoyed bike rides, a lot of pool games, exploring new places, photography, coffee at CCD and a lot more but I do not know what I am going to do now after she leaves India. I do not want to stop her but going like this is making me feel like she won’t be available at the time of my marriage which is making me more uncomfortable. I know I will make her come to India to attend the biggest day of my life but still some fear is always there.
There is a friend whom I admired and always been there for him. For what? For neglecting me? For making me feel that if I am not going to do work for him he will just throw me out of the plans? Huh! I do not care. I do not care if he do things without me as I do not need publicity from his side. Every time I tried to make the way with him I always got into some trouble and still helped him a lot in his work. Are you listening my friend? Despite of the facts that are happening in my life, despite of all the tortures your contacts showered on me, I helped you in many ways. In many things and sometimes even without charging anything. Do you remember when I didn’t care of my sleep just to make sure you do not loose work? Do you remember those days when I helped you just to save your job and you got such good remarks from people on your work? Damn you! Now you are joining hands with someone else who has met you just few days back? Whatever!!
Despite of the fact that I have helped hell lot of people and still helping each and every person whom I can, I am getting nothing but problems in return. Sometimes I feel I can not help being “good” and need to be bad or even worst. Being emotional is not the way of doing work and I am being just an emotional fool from last many years. The first relationship of my life ended very badly and still she thinks that I ruined her life and tried to use her. Excuse me? I was the one who forced you to study and go ahead. I was the one who saved you on many instances. I was the one who was there for you and still try to find that you are alright and feel bad when come to know that you are not so happy with your life. I never used you for anything.
Other than these who tried to break my clients, I have a message for you. YOU SUCK. YES, YOU DO SUCK. Go and check your client list now and see how your resellers are gone from your list. No work from one reseller from last many days huh? Each one of you who treated me like a puppet, I have returned the favor. You tried to bang on me? That is my answer. FU. I know each one of you still wonder why the hell I am behaving so ridiculously with you. Because you tried to take advantage of a person who was helping you.
What else? Is there anything which is making me feel bad? A lot of things. But hey I think for this time, I have enough dose here. Signing of in disappointment.
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By Tejas on Jul 24, 2009 | Reply
omg..!!! dun wry.. cheer up bro… tell dat gal to get lost… tell her u can live without her.. y r u wasting ur tym behind her. she is d one who is ignorin u…. show her even u can ignore her.. cumon dude.. b a man..
By Deep Ganatra on Jul 24, 2009 | Reply
On the contrary, I feel good that you didn’t get that girl.. just imagine, if she would have said yes and in future if there was some argument between you and her, she would have definitely behaved like she just did to you.. so, in a way, it’s good that you got to know about her nature so early..
So, thank god that, he saved you from getting into a bigger mess..
I always believe that, each failure opens a way for the success, a bigger success..
About the friend who cheated you in the business, like I said on the facebook wall.. screw those guys, let them be happy with this.. and then kick them so hard suddenly that they will never forget the wrong thing that they did.. but do the homework properly first
Good luck.
Deep
By Dennis on Jul 27, 2009 | Reply
Don’t worry too much about it, it will always work out in the end. Tell the girl to leave you alone, and take your own path.
By akira07 on Sep 29, 2009 | Reply
So hurt, anurag…i know your feeling because i’m a boy also. Frustation because that problem is a normal. But don’t get too much with it, because your life still going on. Do you want to thinking of her in a whole of your life? Not, right? This is the time to face your condition, awake and prove that you can life without her.
Always a positive side in every situation, anurag. Cheer up…!!!
Wanna give you the song lyrics from SPIRIT by Jrocks :
Just spread all of your wings, and always chase your dream. Leave all the pain and make our life begin. And when it seem to be hard, to live in our ways….but we must go on and always struggling to make all of our dreams comes true…!!!
By topen on Oct 3, 2009 | Reply
im feel bad to you too anuragh… i think you should forget her…because she already flake on you….
there is more better girl than her….on this world…
CMIIW..
cheers
By geneve on Oct 13, 2009 | Reply
always cheer up mr.anurag
By Jenn on Oct 13, 2009 | Reply
rest. don’t think of it too much.
By Dum on Oct 16, 2009 | Reply
Don’t ever feel that you are alone in this world….
By Lidia Robahi on Oct 16, 2009 | Reply
do not let your life ruined just because of one person because, remember there are still many people who love you and if you do not see them all? if you become blind because of this one man?
By akira07 on Oct 17, 2009 | Reply
@Lidia
That’s what i always advice to my friend who get similiar problem with anurag.
And i think it’s very true. Anurag, you still have a friend, right? Moreover, you still have a loyal reader here (we’re your friend also, right?) and God