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Quite Disappointed…

This may be just a feeling or may the same mood swings which keep on coming and going from last many months. But at this moment I am feeling too much disappointed for many reasons. I do not know how to react so may not react on this issue. Though I want to react in very brutal way, so bad that I can ruin many relationships which may be almost ruined or I am myself trying to get on line.

About a month ago, I confessed in front of the girl whom I love that I love her which turned to be a disaster and she is avoiding me from that very day. For single reason I love her, which is dimming, she just stopeed talking to me because this is “making her uncomfortable”. What if I never told her and keep on talking to her and feeling more and more for her? She said once “What if boyfriend of the girl you love, come to beat you?”. I am not doing anything wrong. I am not harming you and never want to do that. That was a feeling which will remain in my heart forever. Getting you back as friend is impossible but remember impossible is “I M Possible”. I know this will take time and I know I should not wait. I think she got angry on my status more where I wrote I won’t step back. May be she took me wrong and thought I want to say I will get her in my life but I just wanted to say that I want to tell you. I want to tell you what I feel for you. May be I ruined everything myself.

My dearest friend is going to Canada for three long years. From last four years, I have spent maximum time with her. We watched movies, enjoyed bike rides, a lot of pool games, exploring new places, photography, coffee at CCD and a lot more but I do not know what I am going to do now after she leaves India. I do not want to stop her but going like this is making me feel like she won’t be available at the time of my marriage which is making me more uncomfortable. I know I will make her come to India to attend the biggest day of my life but still some fear is always there.

There is a friend whom I admired and always been there for him. For what? For neglecting me? For making me feel that if I am not going to do work for him he will just throw me out of the plans? Huh! I do not care. I do not care if he do things without me as I do not need publicity from his side. Every time I tried to make the way with him I always got into some trouble and still helped him a lot in his work. Are you listening my friend? Despite of the facts that are happening in my life, despite of all the tortures your contacts showered on me, I helped you in many ways. In many things and sometimes even without charging anything. Do you remember when I didn’t care of my sleep just to make sure you do not loose work? Do you remember those days when I helped you just to save your job and you got such good remarks from people on your work? Damn you! Now you are joining hands with someone else who has met you just few days back? Whatever!!

Despite of the fact that I have helped hell lot of people and still helping each and every person whom I can, I am getting nothing but problems in return. Sometimes I feel I can not help being “good” and need to be bad or even worst. Being emotional is not the way of doing work and I am being just an emotional fool from last many years. The first relationship of my life ended very badly and still she thinks that I ruined her life and tried to use her. Excuse me? I was the one who forced you to study and go ahead. I was the one who saved you on many instances. I was the one who was there for you and still try to find that you are alright and feel bad when come to know that you are not so happy with your life. I never used you for anything.

Other than these who tried to break my clients, I have a message for you. YOU SUCK. YES, YOU DO SUCK. Go and check your client list now and see how your resellers are gone from your list. No work from one reseller from last many days huh? Each one of you who treated me like a puppet, I have returned the favor. You tried to bang on me? That is my answer. FU. I know each one of you still wonder why the hell I am behaving so ridiculously with you. Because you tried to take advantage of a person who was helping you.

What else? Is there anything which is making me feel bad? A lot of things. But hey I think for this time, I have enough dose here. Signing of in disappointment.

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Jul 16, 2009

Signatures or Autograph?

Two days back, a very dear friend of mine, Mr.Vijay Bainsla, sent a sms which goes like “Achievement in life is when your SIGNATURE becomes your AUTOGRAPH”. Being a middle class boy next door, how difficult it can be to achieve this target is easy to imagine. Not much people think of going that far but what if you think of it. As per my thoughts, you should dream big. As big as possible so that you work more to achieve that.

If you believe you can, someday, make yourself at such a position that your signatures can be considered as autograph. I remember when KBC a.k.a Kaun Banega Crorepati, a reality show hosted by Sh.Amitabh Bacchan started,  maximum people who won 10,000 INR on the show did not send the cheque for clearance. They got the cheque framed and hung it on the wall in their home. I am not saying everyone can achieve that position on which Amitabh Bachchan or Shahrukh Khan is but you can at least think of trying it out. No matter in which field you are, looking for “autograph able” person is not too hard. After all superstars are not same n every field ;). Refer to Intel advertisement here!

If I get a chance to meet Matt Mullenweg, founder wordpress, I will love to get autograph! If I meet Bill Gates I do not know if I have so much courage to ask him for his autograph. But someday, if I achieve a position being a pro blogger, may be some young blogger ask autograph from me.

I am not asking for something impossible. If in a field which even did not exist few years back, there is possibility of converting signatures into autograph then why not in your field? You just need to be determined. You are no one less than a cricketer or an actor or even some big shot social worker or a business tycoon. The thing is your talent is hidden somewhere inside you. Deep inside which has weight of responsibilities toward family and other things on it.

The only thing you need to do is spend some time for yourself. Dig the hidden talent no matter it is related to your field or not. Work on it. Elaborate it and feel happy for being what you are. It can be painting, singing, dancing, blogging, writing, photography or even being a comedian.

Once you are out of the boundaries you normally live in, you will see a different world. I know some bank employees who on weekends, give live shows in restaurants. Its not easy to be different but it is not hard to be unique. Being on stage and being in crowd is different but remember that the person standing on the stage was once a part of the crowd only.

So go ahead, work on your talent. It can be or not related to your field but its not hard to elaborate what you want to be. Signatures are never too far from being an autograph.

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Jul 14, 2009

Please Be Down To Earth

Self respect and self esteem are no doubt, a very important part of our life. Being a good human being and respecting yourself before anyone else is quite difficult and is a hectic job to do. Even if you have spent a lot of years working, sometimes it’s very hard to judge that what amount of ego will be good to show off. Ego basically is not a problem but in many cases it gets out of limit.

When you are dealing with someone, no matter it is professional or personal, there are some common facts which, if taken care of, can be very helpful in developing a strong impression on the mind of the person listening to you. When you are talking to someone, no matter online or offline, the first thing you should take care of is to greet. It is very important to greet the person you are talking to in a proper way. By proper way I mean if s/he is a client or friend or just a new contact, there are ways and certain norms for greeting. For e.g. you should not say “Zinda hai” or “Still alive?” to the person you are starting conversation with even if s/he is a very close friend. This shows your hate for them.

Secondly, if the person in front of you is not very well known to you, tell him/her about you, your name, profession and location. It will be good to know which language suits both of you for proper conversation. Telling the name first while calling someone even if you are sure s/he must have saved your number is a good gesture to follow.

Do not only speak, listen too. Sometimes to show our knowledge, unknowingly, we do not let the others speak and express their views. In this case the impression in the person’s mind will fall. It is said “To ruin the impression is very easy but to get it back to a good level can take 100’s of good deeds.” Do not be a bad listener. If you think you have the right to speak, it’s your duty to listen.

Another thing you should keep in mind is that “the trees with fruits bend with humility”. Try to be as nice as you can to the person you are dealing with. You never know when s/he can be a big help to you. This world runs on only one rule i.e. “I scratch your back and you scratch mine.” Be helpful, be nice and be down to earth. Never show over confidence and ego where it is not required.

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Dream Big – Don’t Be Afraid

Failure, a vital and integral part of success. It is always hard to remove the dropping tears occurring due to high number of failed attempts and move forward. The main thing to keep in mind and make your heart understand is to “NEVER SAY IMPOSSIBLE”. Even someone say it’s impossible tell him/her if it is impossible, it saying “I M POSSIBLE”. The word will tell the meaning in the way you see it.

The more optimist you become, the more happy and successful you will be. Half filled glass of water is always better than half empty glass of water. The only difference is perspective of watching it. Let me tell a story which atleast motivate me a lot.

Once upon a time, there was a king who tried very hard to defeat his neighbor state. After 10 unsuccessful attempts, he was left with nothing. No army, no money, no state. He ran to jungle to safe his life. While he was resting in a cave, he saw an ant trying hard to climb a wall with a grain. Every time she reaches half way, she fells down. He started was it very carefully. Even after trying 10s to times, the ant never gave up and in end reached the top. The king thought if an ant can do why can’t I. He went back, recollected army and again attacked the neighbor state. This time he WON.

This is what I want to tell you. Dreaming big is not bad. It is good to have dreams. If I do not have dreams, I would rather prefer to die then to live. Dreams motivate you to bring new life to your daily routine. They tell you that you need to move further and achieve new goals in life. Everyone wants to be a millionaire but unfortunately all do not make to it but only few understand that in the way of giving it a try, they have achieved a lot which was almost impossible for their ancestors.

Each and every time you fulfill a small dream, you will feel happy. You will smile and will spread the happiness to you family members too. This will not only give a new dimension to your health but also to your beloved once who love to see you smiling and their smile somewhere depends on yours.

So dream, dream big, try hard to fulfil it, smile and let others smile with you.

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Jun 23, 2009

Satisfied With What I Am But Still Want To Be Someone?

First of let me tell you this is not what I think. I was in CCD yesterday waiting for Naveen Choudhary (a friend from Dainik bhaskar and a budding photographer) so that we can have a chat over his upcoming blog. Somehow, due to huge traffic problem in evenings near Sector 35 Chandigarh, he got late by 20 minutes. Meanwhile I was waiting for him, I noticed some words uttered very loudly from a near by table. “Every human have such emotions, no matter you believe me or not but every Homosapiens have such emotions. Girls have more but boys do have. Don’t you believe? No no give me example why don’t you believe and blah blah blah”. I was like what is the problem with this girl? Anyway, I had time to listen to what she is saying so I diverted my whole concentration towards the issue they were discussing on. (Bad part of me :P but it really gave me  chance to study a kind of “Not So Natural” behavior).

One line which really disturbed me is “I am satisfied with what I am, but still I want to be someone”. She presented this line so confidently like if she has no issues in life and want to continue just to show she can do more. But as per my knowledge says, she lacks in self confidence and need to work a lot on her attitude.

The main reason of writing this article is to mak a point on the amount of attitude you bear in yourself. Attitude is very important in life. If a person needs to get out of being insulted, being suppressed or something like that, s/he has to increase the amount of attitude in his/her life and should become a bit proud of what s/he is. Till this point the thing is absolutely alright and there is no problem in showing some attitude in such condition. But what instead of giving you a way to walk, the attitude starts killing your self esteem? Yes, my friend, it can do so.

In the case I mentioned above, the girl must have faced very critical things in life. May be in personal or in academic life. I don’t think she is over 20 years of age but the way she was presenting herself (not talking in dressing sense) in such a way that she is someone which you can not avoid. Unfortunately her first impression made me think not to see her again in my life. Too much of attitude, not listening to what the people in front of you and trying to prove that you are satisfied with everything in life even with the sexual part, in public, which is not at all acceptable when you are meeting someone at first time. When she mentioned, “I am satisfied even with my sex life”, all of the people present around her went in to silence. At that time I wished I can go and tell her to please stop abusing herself in front of so many people.It is not the thing that I am against the word sex and its importance in life but the thing is, there is time for everything.

Now what should you take care while being in a group for the first few times? Read carefully:

1. Don’t show you are something very important in the life of the person with whom you came.
2. Don’t show that you have done enough in your life and are living just for the sake of enjoying the bucks you have in your pocket. This will prove you a fool for sure.
3. Never offer to pay until you are the only at least equal earning hand in the group. Seems suspicious? Think of it. You are in that group for the first time and you pay for all the things you bought in the cafe or whatsoever. To people, who came just for the sake of not spending anything will love it but those who are sensible enough will either go for contribution or will try to pay themselves. You deed of offering to pay can result in downfall of your reputation in their eyes. Make sure if you earn, you pay your contribution yourself. Do not let your friend who took you there to pay for you. If you are a girl and you hesitate to offer your share in front of others, pay after the get together is over to your friend. I have seen girls avoiding to pay even when they earn. This may not harm your relationship with your friends in short time but in long term relations with friends, in some cases people start avoiding you.
4. Never show too much of attitude. Always remember that “The tree bends only when it has fruit on it”. If you have you qualities and think you are a good person, always be decent. Listen to people sitting in front of you. Understand their point and never try to over do your thoughts over them.
5. Do not eat too fast. Max of us unknowingly do this. No matter how good you are, no matter how blessed you are with qualities. Being a monster while eating will prove you a monster and nothing else. “Shrek is not there in real life”.
6. Never use so much scientific language in front of others if you feel they may not know about what you are talking about. Homosepians, though is a well known word but still we do not use this on regular basis please!

These are just few points which can bring the inner good human being out. Try working on your attitude and control it in limits before its too late. Be good, get good reviews from others and never show the “F” hidden inside you to the people yu are meeting for the first time.

Enjoy life and enjoy your “Attitude In Limits”. Take care.

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I can only say THANK YOU READER :)

Well I got a mail yesterday from a blog reader. Reading the heading, made me feel that it is some sort of “solution required” mail. But! My dear reader, I am taking it as compliment! Thank you for giving me such a place in your thoughts.

I am adding a screenshot here. I am touched, I am smiling. Smiling from the moment I received the mail.

Thanks again. Keep visiting.

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Jun 21, 2009

Looking and seeing into…

Life is full of things which you just give a look to without seeing what really lies behind them. From the very first day of your conscious life, you struggle for one thing. The moment of happiness, the moment when you can say, Yes, I am happy now and can move without any complications. This is quite unfortunate that while finding the situation, you just miss out the moments which can make you happy, though not for the whole life, but for a fraction of second.That fraction of seconds, when collected together, makes difference. The difference you require in your life.

After working for so many years, falling for few girls, watching girls falling for me, struggling to get on right track of work and much more have made me learn a lot. The best thing I learn is I need to see the things rather than just look on them. But whats the difference? The difference is in the perspective and the depth to which I go.

If I look a guy stealing something, he is a thief for me but if I see the reason behind it I may find a reason of someone very sick in his family. Very true, this can not be always the reason behind any bad act but sometimes it really matters if you try to take things positively and stop running from facts in life.

Some say, I can not just close my eyes to reality. I say, do not close your eyes but face it. Face the truth, face the facts and mind you facts can not be more rude than you. You have the guts to face them and to make sure that they turn around according to you. This does not matter how much time it is going to take but the thing that matters is how quickly you can do it.

Every single problem in life has a solution. Every single solution give birth to another problem. When a door is closed another will be there for you but if all doors get closed the window will open. But what if windows are closed? DIG. Yes, my friend, dig the hole and get out of the situation. Let the cage live lonely without you and show your hidden power that you can get out of any problem.

When you were born, you knew nothing but to cry. You have learn to laugh, to giggle, to make friends, to earn, to eat, to do everything you want and you can do. Nothing is impossible for you. You just need to crack that simple code which the master spirits have put in front of you so that you do not find everything easy.

The only thing you need is to change the perspective and see into things. Do not just ignore the facts of life but face them. Enjoy every second, enjoy the mess you have made out of your life and try hard to clear it up. The day you win the mess, you win the world.

Keep the spirits up :)

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