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I am not that mean…

From last 3-4 days, after meeting her, I am falling more and more towards her. I know she has has the idea that I am in love with her and she just want me to stop thinking about her. After coming back to Chandigarh, I gave this issue a long thought. Though the thought was only of few hours but is long enough for me. I had discussed the problem with some very good friends too and really I am feeling much better and clear about the things.But one girl, yes one girl made me to think again. YOU MY FRIEND, I KNOW YOU ARE RIGHT AND SHE HAS THE RIGHT TO GET ANGRY ON ME. I am addressing some words here to my love. Just to tell what I am from heart. Just be patient sweetheart and read.

I know that you have one special person in your life. In front of that person, the guy, the love of your life, I stand nowhere and I know this is literally NOWEHRE. I do not want to say that he can not take care of you and know that if I say I care about you and will love to keep this thought in my mind till I am alive, can make you REALLY ANGRY. I am not saying I am more capable than him or I am better than him. I know there must be something special in him which I am lacking of.

I am not mean. I do not want you to leave him and come to me. I never said that. But you can not stop me from loving you. I am not asking for return, I am not asking you to talk to me or be with me or chat with me or whatever. I am just asking you to let me care for you without any condition. Without the feeling of being a part of your life. I have kept a deep place in my heart just for you. You will remain there forever. I do not want you to even look at me when I am around. I just want you to let me see you. Let me have the feeling to be around you and baby you won’t even come to know that I am around.

Someday, soon, I will come and tell you silently that you are the one. Yes, you are the one for whom I care so much. Despite of the fact that this may make you too angry on me but hey, I am a sweet friend sweet enough to get angry on. .

Anyway, what if tell you that I have already said this to you today only? What if you come to know that you already scolded me for being so caring for you. What if you think of the chat we had just gave me a chance to show my love? Yes, I am still in love with you sweetheart. I am going to tell you someday. Someday when I feel that you wont kill me for loving you. But hey, feel free to kill me . Just smile. That will be enough .

Love you and yes, I do care for you.

Meeting You Made Me Happy.. Thank You :)

I am in Amritsar right now. Last night I was missing this admin panel of my blog a lot. The reason was the total turnoff of my mood after meeting you and recalling each and everything again. I am left with no choice but to write here and express my feelings.

I am in your city my dear. I know it is now confirmed that you are in a relation and there is almost no hope for me. Still, meeting you was the happiest moment of my day. I really loved the way you were looking yesterday. So beautiful, so sweet and as usual so caring. You know, I was about to tell you that you are the one but how can I think of hurting you sweetheart.

I know it is going to be really hard for me to move and keep on talking to you without letting you know that I love you so much. I know writing all this here will not only make a chance that you come to know whom I was pointing yesterday but there is chance that you get angry for sometime. But I still want to say whatever is in my heart.

I am not that bad guy, I told you. And I will prove that I am a good human being. I won’t hurt you by creating unnecessary problems in your life but will keep looking for you in my whole life. I am not going to spoil your life that is for sure. If God become so rude that he do not allow you in my life, I will keep on struggling against his wish to get you. I know its very hard and the steps which I am going to take can be a bit harmful for me. But I do not care much now.

I am not in mood to keep everything that secret and will keep on bugging something here and there to make sure you get some hint every moment you think of me. I know my sweetie is not so dumb to avoid the signs .

You asked me two days back if I was behind that deed but I clearly refused but hey! You at least thought that I can do such thing! That’s more than enough for me and yes I was the culprit haha. That was not a mistake sweetheart, not at all. Yesterday I took my cam intentionally when I came to meet you as I wanted some pictures but somehow my heart was not allowing me to do so. I just wanted to look at you and keep tracing your face in my mind so that whenever I close my eyes I can see you. I told you that you were looking so sweet and the blush I saw on your cheeks was a happy moment .

This blog will bring some problems for me as now will keep on bugging things about you and how much I am in love with you. I do not know why God sometimes enjoy playing games with me but this time I am ready to be an integral part of his show and will show him that in end he has to give some good end note. I can be naughty, I can be nasty and even can be mad enough to make every situation unthoughtful for myself. But I will make sure that I won’t hurt you in any case. Few days back, when you were spending time with him, I was digging myself to see where exactly I am standing right now. The situation I come to know about is the main reason behind coming to your city. I started missing you so much that I was left with no other choice to make a plan and find a reason to come and see you. I am sure you got the hint yesterday and now you will literally force me to stop thinking about you. Moreover YOU HAVE ALREADY SAID THAT.

But try to keep yourself on my place and think how can I just stop thinking of you. You can not just come and stop me of drawing your smiling face in my mind. If you do not want me in your life I am not going to force you at all. But think of it in this way once. If in future you come to me and say that “Anurag, I am with you for rest of my life” and at that time I can not say yes, how would you feel? Terrible! right? NO. This won’t happen. I am sure. You will come and will come before time. If you are my destiny, no one can keep you away from me.

It Will never be easy for me to tell you the exact feelings I have right now for you. They will keep on growing with every second of my life. I know when you will read this you will think of each and every minute you spent yesterday with me and count the signs I gave you. I know you will. You will come to know how deeply I am in love with you and want you in my life. That’s unfortunate for me that I missed the chance to say the “three words” by just few hours.

With loads and loads of “LOVE”. Yes, it is love. No crush, no infactuation. PURE AND DEEP LOVE. Happy to be in your city sweetie. Really thanks for calling me and meeting me. Though I know I bugged a lot yesterday .

Matrimonial — Where are they heading?

I am 24, male, looking for my better half. Do I really need to book myself on Shaadi, Indian Matrimonial or need to give advertisement in newspaper and look for girls who are “Convent Educated” or should go to a TV show (talking about star vivah, recently started on Star TV)?

Let me clerify one thing first that I am not so desperate to get married that I am writing this on my blog. I just want to express my views on the system we are following to get married. After even 10 years of being social, I still do not understand the concept of arrange marriage. There is no single marriage in my knowledge which is fixed via website, tv show, matrimonial ads or something like that, is 100% success. Well clearly speaking, only 10% of the marriages which I have seen till date or you can say 10% of married couples, living happily.

Getting married is one of the most happy moments I can think of, in a girl’s or boy’s life. Getting married to a right person is a real time hard to find thing. Sometimes, when I feel bored on Sundays, I look into Matrimonial sections of newspapers for jokes! Confused? Yes, I look for Matrimonial for jokes. The ads there are nothing better than PJ’s. If you look at them you will find that the people who get married in this world are neither beautiful, nor from good family, nor highly educated, nor earning good because all such people find their partners from MATRIMONIAL. I do not understand of writing “Convent Educated” in the qualification. Does this make difference? Do they look like “Avtars”? The main thing in education is the institute and the backbone behind you. If the girl is so called “Convent Educated” and can not respect the family members, whats the use of such education then?

I think getting married to the right person is as important as breathing. Few things which are important as per my thoughts should be:

1. Nature.
2. Understanding.
3. Knowledge of needs and medical conditions.
4. Importance of being together.
5. Love between the partners.
6. Guts to say sorry. Yes, it should be there in both the partners.

Rest there can be a long list of do’s and dont’s which I do not think, I have write to say at this moment hehe.

Look forward, think twice before going for such things. Beware of frauds and try to look for the best option for you. Life is not for spoiling with your own bare hands. ENJOY